Musings of an Otaku

Well, a call from AccountTemps, a division from RobertHalf, sure lifted up my spirits today when I finished my last day at work until Febuary 4th. I have to go to their office in New Haven on Tuesday, but the job they would like me to do is in New London. I still have to meet with one of the accounting reps to make sure I can do what the client wants on Excel and it's only data entry, but it sounds like the pay is good. It sounds like it might be better then Godiva which is $10.50 per hour.

Things are starting to look up just a little bit and it has pulled me out of my depression and has even started to help get the creative juices flowing. Although I'm still in a rut in regards to getting things running again with my fanfiction (curse the new plot bunnies!), I'm getting back into writing the original version of DGL. My problem before is that I was trying to do it from the same version as the fanfiction and start with King Leonard's death. I decided to summarize that and Javeska's life growing up into a once upon a time thing which is turning out rather nicely.

I've also decided to make the new husband be a little better then Naraku and not objectify Javeska (who is the original version of Kagome) as much. I like the thought of him seeing her as an idea rather then a possession, and not quite understanding why she cries and has desires.

Now I'm getting excited again, like I normally am when I first start a story.

I'm going to post what I've rewritten on Sunday, and try to start writing on more regular basis and updating. A special shout out to seducedbydreams for critiquing the original DGL and giving me feedback and a thanks to "Buffy" & "Angel" for the inspiration.

Well, it looks like I may not have an update tomorrow. I was working on some of my pieces at work and my flashdrive got misplaced. Fortunately, it looks like the intern picked it up so I should have it on Monday. So unless I come up with a new idea for a story there won't be another update tomorrow.


Well, I was hoping to have a part time job for this season at Borders Express and I found out today that previous managers did not want to hire me back because I didn't interact with the customers. At least that was the excuse. Now, I don't know exactly what to say about that. Because I know that I was always looking for customers to help when it wasn't busy. So there was probably another reason for it. This sucks because I absolutely refuse to take any time away from Godiva. I think the thing about this that bothers me the most has to with the fact that because I have the hardest time with self-esteem. Especially since I've been job-hunting for over a year. I think I'm over that now, and I am grateful for the hiring manager for being blunt and telling me why she was reluctant to offer me a job. Because she was willing to give me a chance to prove myself, but I think that the whole situation would have just been awkward....

Fortunately, the amount of money that I am aiming to save is $2 k, and even without the overtime that I will be required to put in I will have that amount. So now my goal is to find a job in either Boston or somewhere in New Hampshire by January. Even though I'm trying to stay away from retail and customer service, if I don't have a job offer by mid January then I won't have much of a choice. I have to get the hell out of CT and a place in New Hampshire by the beginning of next year, preferably as soon as the season is over for Godiva.

So I've decided to say screw the second job for the time being. On a side note I got a $100 check from my aunt for graduating from college, officially. I was shocked because I know that she is currently having financial and personal issues. In addition to the Godiva gifts that we are sending to the family this year I am going to send her a box of the G collection as a thank you.

I wish tomorrow was here already. I want to know if I have a job already...

Very annoying.

It will be great if I get the job, because then I'll have money again and then I can start saving to get an apartment.I should be able to get one by the end of the year. *I hope.*

Ugh.

Why is life such a bitch?

At least once I get a job I'll no longer feel like I'm going nowhere.

At least I do have some good news. I finally got my grade for that course I took in the fall. I got a B-, which means as soon as I get that to transfer over I'll only have 2 classes left.

Still....

I'm really pissed about the convention. If I get the job that will be wonderful and bring in money - which is good - but it's also wasting my registration. Who in there right mind has training classes on Saturdays?! It's so frustrating!

I have to take the training for the work at home program otherwise I wouldn't worry about it. If I only had to take the training for the first 2-3 weeks then it wouldn't be a problem. I would be able to leave for Boston and only miss one day.

And I'd still be able to cosplay.

But the work at home training is 90 days, and I can't miss a day. This means I couldn't skip Saturday to go to the con. Which means I won't be able to leave until Saturday evening and I wouldn't arrive until AFTER registration closes, probably. This means I'll miss out on all of the stuff that happens Saturday night and only be able to attend the stuff on Sunday.

And if they do manage to get any Japanese guests then I won't be able to meet them.

It really pisses me off, because I don't know what's going on for next year's con. Liz is ending her time at UNH and she going to try for grad school. I don't what happens if she gets in or if I'll get accepted into the JET program....

I don't get to see her much, and I loved the fanfiction forum last year.

And cosplaying.

Did I mention cosplaying?

Maybe I can work on us going to a different con with her.

I know things are actually pretty good, considering. I have a place to live, and my parents are helping me out with the bills. I'd be royally screwed if they weren't, but I've been looking forward to this since last May. I have no otaku friends, which means I have no life.

Anyone know of any otakus in Connecticut's New London county?

Well, with any luck I may have a job in the near future. Bob's, as in Discount Furniture, is hiring for Customer Care. Now it's not the paralegal or secretary job that I'm hoping for but it's better then retail.

The nice thing about this job, if I get it, is that if needed and I lose my license I can work at home. So wish me luck at the interview tomorrow.

Concerning writing...

I've finally found my motivation and my bitchy muse is back. This means I'll be able to finally finish up those small parts on Chapter 40 that I've been avoiding. Also I've started work on the original version of DGL. It's only a page and a half of the prologue but I like how it's going. I've also got some new angles for angst and plot thickening.

I'm going to post a preview, on the last DGL post. I'm still deciding as to whether or not I'm going to post it on fictionpress. I want to get this published and hopefully make money off of it. I plan on submitting it after I've rewritten Chapter 5 and submit the first five chapters for publication.

If that doesn't work out like I hope then I probably will post on fictionpress. Either way I'll pull it from the web if it does get published. Gomen, but I would really like to be able to make money off of this.

Lets see what happens.